Spaced

The idea of sleep seems so peaceful right now. To drift off somewhere else would be down right heavenly. But it’s not going to happen. I have too much in my mind.

I can hear the birds chirping.

I’ve been trying to wash my brain with mindless television but it’s only making matters worse.

I keep writing you messages and erasing them when I’m done. It’s rather pathetic. Thoughts of what I would do in this state of mind normally would scare me. But for once… It’s not. And it’s bothering me.

Sitting In a Dark

Here I am…

Alone in bed in the dark…

My depression is overwhelming me like a hurricane. A deep pain in my stomach I just want to go away. My head consumed with thoughts that only make the pain worse.

I would say I feel like giving up but I have nothing to give up on. I feel insignificant to anything. Unless.

I have no one to go to…

I once thought I had all the friends in the world. But the more time that passed the more I realized how alone I really am…

I’ve seen people drink away this pain or even inject chemicals to try and rid it away but the truth is that those only cover it up for awhile…

I have no way of ridding myself of this sharp pain.

I feel lost and alone…

Remember When?…

Remember when we were ten and time felt like it had no end?
Remember when we would spin, without a care, into the wind?
Remember when the streets would bend and lights would lead us home again?

Remember when we would spend everyday with our friends?
Remember when love was something we could not comprehend?
Remember when we’d pretend to fly away only to come back again?

Yesterday seems so far away. When did it all slip away?

Slow down, life moves too fast
Slow down, moments never last
Slow down, or time will pass

Remember when life was simple?

(Source: clairalience, via likethesun)